New Start

Well, if there are any of you left, here is an actual post...

There has been lots going on, aren't we all so busy? So, some news: I was expecting baby number 2, and now we are not. I actually passed tissue on Mother's Day, and am just recovering from a pretty devastating and life changing event. Next to Ethan's birth, this is the hardest thing I have ever gone through, and even though physically, I am getting a little stronger each day, the emotional and spiritual side will take time, but we are alright. I have been truly humbled by the outpouring of generosity of friends and family, thank you all so much, you will never know how much you have done for me and my family. There has been an amazing spirit of love in our home that I will be forever grateful for.

Five days after Ethan was born, 3 days after getting home from the hospital, after being in labor for 22 1/2 hours, and a C-Section later, I was on the phone with my boss discussing my return to the office. 5 weeks later, I made my great return, with a baby in tow. Ethan has gone to work with me for nearly 2 years. It started at about 5-6 hours a day and has gone to about 3. He used to nap, nurse, play, crawl, eventually walk and now run around my office for all this time. When he was younger, toys (a rattle) sufficed, and as his patience and attention span shortened, we bought a portable DVD player and Elmo, Super Y and Nemo have been his babysitter while I bussle away at my work tasks.

With this new pregnancy, keeping up with a busy toddler and going into the office 5 days a week had become quite the effort and I was getting very tired, and very stretched thin needless to say. I had planned on talking to my boss about working from home, since I obviously couldn't bring a toddler and a newborn into the office, there had already been complaints about my "noisy" son in the building. What would they say about the lady bringing her tribe to work? Well, the miscarriage shed new light on the situation, literally.

My doctor said it could easily take 2 - 3 months to get back to "normal" and we want to try again, since we have been trying for almost a year as it is, we brought Ethan home a week before our 5 Year Anniversary, so we are anxious to get our family here. I couldn't ask for a 3 month pass out of work, so I proposed I work from home. My boss graciously accepted my proposal and now I am a Stay at Home Working Mom.

This past few weeks have brought many changes and adjustments, and although I won't be having a baby in 6 months, I now have the amazing opportunity to be with my son, not just while he watches puppets and cartoons, but really be with him, sing songs with him, color with him, make cookies with him, take him to the aquarium and wheeler farm, and just enjoy the little awesome boy that he is, I think I really have missed out and now I'm going to do all that I can to make up for lost time.

I hope you are all doing well, I enjoy seeing your updates, and will try harder to post more regularly, now that I'm not passed out on the couch by 7 pm nightly... :) Here are a couple of pictures of my sweet little boy!